Showing posts with label sex. Show all posts
Showing posts with label sex. Show all posts

Monday, March 14, 2011

one night stands...

it's well known that being single isn't exactly fun. no matter how hard you try to make your life exciting to compensate for not having anyone by your side, the fact remains that there's a feeling of something missing, like a big hole which can't be closed up regardless how many times you try.

being human, which separates us differently as a unique individual, deal with the loneliness in our own ways. If as a child we compensate the loneliness by having imaginary friends or creating much trouble to our parents or guardians, as adults we didn't stray away too far from that path. difference is, we are now responsible for our own actions.

most single guys would fill up the hole with 'extra-curricular' activities which doesn't involve a relationship. sex is just a thing to do to pass the time and to release the sexual tension of needing to 'do it' with another person because face it, orgasm is better when someone is there to please you. though one night stand is a remedy for temporary relief from loneliness, it's definitely not the solution.

one night stands have its pros and cons. but if we look at it in the long run, the cons outweighs the pros by two folds. yeah, it is exciting to have a touch and go session with a stranger but in current times, danger lurks more prevalently compared to how it was few decades or centuries ago with the risk of getting STDs, getting yourself killed or being duped by con artists.

though i am aware of the consequences, i am still having thoughts of taking the half day off and cruise for strangers who are willing to blow me off...and if they're good looking, i might get to have actual sex.

still... getting positive sexual feedback from the certain networking sites which subtly promotes one night stands, i am still weighing my options of whether to go ahead with the bunch of requests wanting to blow me off or to fuck them. i've done my shares of one night stands and i can tell you that the thrill and excitement is addictive. although i've acted on it few times, i am still being held down by my own guilty conscience on a religious and cultural perspective, and of the need to explain my past to the person i'll be waking up to every morning in the future..if my conquests was ever questioned....

yeah, i may sound like i'm contradicting myself, but from what i can gather or experienced, one night stand is a blast, but having sex with someone you really care about is more fulfilling.

hmmm, that settles it. maybe i will stick to one night stands until the right person comes along...

Monday, August 11, 2008

sex and celibacy...


hey blog,

been quite sometime since i had any real physical pleasures, well..nearly a year to be exact, and after all those waiting and hoping i've finally given up and did it with someone random. man, it was hot...we started making out at public places before heading to that person's place hahaha.

fyi, i've never done any ONS with anyone before, but that night..i felt so free or felt like wanting to be free i decided to let loose and enjoy myself. not to brag here, but whenever i let loose and be my ignorant self, i seem to attract attention (not in a head turning kinda way, more like the charisma within me oozes out and makes the people around me damn comfortable haha).

honestly, i didn't mind the sex (it was hot though...really damn hot, but that's only my personal opinion hehe) but i can't help but wish that i was doing it with that one special person tsk tsk...

right okay, here are the important events to remember for this month/week:

August 05th 2008: i was finally let go and liberated from my confusions. what makes this day special is, it didn't come from me...

August 10th 2008: broke my celibacy period after going through it nearly a year without having any (loyalty sucks hahaha)

Ciao...will try to do my best to update you on the things happening with me okay :)