panicked...

hey you,

i nearly freaked out cos i thought you had been deleted or i may have forgotten your password. tried every email i had and i still couldn't log in to you. i panicked, but after awhile i realized that i entered the wrong password hahaha. dont worry, i have no intention of deleting you :)..

ps: i'm sorry for not updating you regularly. owh, enjoy this clip. cheers :)

hung up on....

i still find it strange that after all these while, after haven't been in contact with that person for nearly half a year...i'm still so much in love with my ex. yeah i know..sad isn't it?

everynight without miss, i would bid my ex goodnight, there isn't a day when i dont think of that person but the most sad part of it is that, i keep telling myself that what i'm feeling isn't love at all hoping that i may wake up one day with none of the feeling now. probably i'm one of those guys who just likes the idea of being in love and not the real aspect of love itself, but if it's not love i'm feeling...than what is? i know it's not infatuation because it shouldn't hurt so much...confusing isn't it :).

waddya know..i am pathetic :).

ps: hey, this is my problem and i will deal with it the best way i know how :)...

Yovie & Nuno - Menjaga Hati...

heya blog,

here's a song...for me :P



Masih tertinggal bayanganmu
Yang telah membekas di relung hatiku
Hujan tanpa henti seolah pertanda
Cinta tak di sini lagi
Kau tlah berpaling

Reff:
Biarkan aku menjaga perasaan ini, ohh
Menjaga segenap cinta yang telah kau beri
Engkau pergi, aku takkan pergi
Kau menjauh, aku takkan jauh
Sebenarnya diriku masih mengharapkanmu

Masih adakah cahaya rindumu
Yang dulu selalu cerminkan hatimu
Aku takkan bisa menghapus dirimu
Meski ku lihat kini
Kau di seberang sana

Repeat reff

Andai akhirnya
Kau tak juga kembali
Aku tetap sendiri
Menjaga hati

Repeat reff [3x]

Sejujurnya diriku masih mengharapkanmu

in pursuit of my own happiness...

heya bloggie :),

i really am sorry for haven't been updating you quite as often as i said i would :). but just so you know, i've been doing very well. i've finally grasp the true meaning of whay being ignorant is like :). probably what they said is true, 'when you're so emotionally hurt, your heart gets swollen and as the hurt progressess, your heart get so swollen it ceases (or fail) to feel anything at all'.

there were times when i lapsed into nearly eating my own words...but i got to my senses real quick and managed to do damage control hahaha.

honestly speaking..i am still very much in love with that person. but as days go by, i've learned to accept that some things are not meant to be and even when i convince myself that another chance would never arise, my hopes of being with my better half, to love and be loved is still strong. but hey..another thing i learned is that...i can always love someone even when the other person doesn't as long as i keep it to myself :).

but as i was saying...i've been doing much better since the start of the year. i've been ignoring stuff which has no relevance to me and it's working out very well. hopefully this keeps up until i am fully ready to let go and get over that special person :).