i am gay, and it's okay

it's understandable why most heterosexuals are against homosexuals, after all, we are living in a heterosexual world. the years of growing up being told that being gay is a sin and condemnation from all sides of various religions for such act gave a reason for the so called righteous people to ostracize the people different from them. i mean, it's easy for them to do what they do because they're not born different. it's especially worse in Muslim nations, and one of them is Malaysia, the country where i was born in and raised.

sometimes i wonder where does these people keep their rationality and logic because, if they think of the situation clearly, it's not that these people wanted to be the way they are, in fact, most are born this way. there are even scientific proofs to support that gay people are born and not made, which goes the same for the heterosexuals.

besides, what is there to be achieved to repress an individual's sexual orientation? is it going to make the world more productive? they should look at the bright side, if heteros seeks out heteros, the same applies to homos as well. if it's against the person's religious teachings, too bad..at least we know who goes to hell right and it's none of your problem.

anyway, i just wanna say that there's nothing wrong with being gay. it's not a choice and definitely not a way of life. but still, we are only humans and some are born different than the others.

so whois my current hero? i have to say the guy in this video...

temporary lapse of judgment...

yeah, i moved to another state as per my last post and frankly, i'm loving every bit of my independent life here :)

right now i'm somewhat tipsy, but that's quite normal..what's strange is that, i am missing my ex so much! pathetic isn't it, and after all these while i thought i've gotten over the relationship. apparently i'm mistaken, let's just hope i don't do anything stupid like making a phone call haha.

but then again, i would've called...but seeing how happy my ex is with the 'boyfriend', i don't think that would be a wise move. and what i feel and want doesn't mean that the ex is expecting the same thing from me, because it has been made clear to me that i am just to be a friend and there wont be any other chances in the future. okay, it wasn't exactly said out loud...but that was implied :p. besides, despite having this feeling...i deserve to be happy right? i mean, i don't have to be too hung up with things that will never happen again, right? :)

anyhow, i just wanna say:

'i miss you and will always love you, and that's why we really can't be friends...besides, you're happy with where you are now, or at least, your boyfriend is happy to be with you. but who wouldn't be right? anyway, love you... :)'

shites...

damn, 2 more months and it'll be a year since i last updated you. but you know what, that only goes to show that i'm doing pretty well with my life and don't feel bad because the other blog has been neglected for quite sometime now (although it does get updated once in while :P)

anyhow, i'll be moving to another state soon and i'm looking forward to it. just can't wait to get my hands on the offer letter. i'm not sure how the change will affect me but i dont really care...i need to get away, work at some place where people doesn't know me, but being in the PR line...that's never gonna happen, especially when working with a MNC in the big metro. the hell with it, it's time for me to re-invent myself and reach up to my fullest potential and maybe along the way find someone whom as geeky as i am but still in the cool zone haha (yeah, self praise is no praise..i know haha).

i wouldn't count much on being in a relationship anytime soon. being too much of a homebody and someone who prefers his privacy at home either alone or with someone special just doesn't click with anyone's idea of being in a perfect relationship. and if that person does show up, i may need a hard knock on the head to tell me that the person i've been waiting for is right in front of me haha.

i've been rambling haven't i? well, hopefully this is worth nearly a year's entry :p. till later bloggie :)..