drowsy rambling hehe

Hey Bloggie,

Remember the sex buddy i mentioned in my previous entry. FYI, i've only done penetration with SB (Sex Buddy) twice and after the second time, i started having second thoughts..

yeps, second thoughts and ever since the last session..i have been celibate. you must be wondering why was i having second thoughts? you must be thinking what is wrong wit me since any other guys would definitely do sex at every given opportunities.

let's just say, after the second session..my head got a lot clearer. the only reason i did it in the first place was because.., i felt damn lonely and i needed someone to be there for me. but after giving it much thought, i realised that i am not a guy who would do sex with any random persons. but what's done is done, the best i can do now is to learn from mistakes, straighten things up and get back on track :). and you know something...i am pretty sure everything is falling into place right now, like they said..'ignorance is bliss', and in my case, it really is :).

gonna hit the sack now, so goodnite :)

ps: missess that person so damn much that i would do whatever it takes to be back together. but that wouldn't be right, no? hehehe. anyhow, hope that person is having fun with the trip now, and hopefully i am being thought of all the time...gosh, this sucks big time...

update...

hey there blog,

maybe i should give you a name, probably i will...once i've found something which suits you, so for now, you're stuck with 'blog' hehehe.

my apologies for haven't been writing any entries lately, i wanted to but i suddenly realised that whenever i do come up with something, the other person is always in mind and i am trying real hard to forget that person...

things has been going pretty well for me, nothing great but just okay. guess what, i've made new friends as well, cool eh. but even with these new friends, even when i do parade a smile like nothing really bothers me..the fact is, i'm still kinda hurt inside and honestly speaking...i miss that person a whole damn much. yeah, i know..with all the silence and no contacts for about nearly a month, i should've gotten over the fact tha the person and i are no longer together. but that's not the case here..i still think about that person 24-7 (more like every minute hehehe), and i can't stop wondering if the person is as well. but who am i kidding hahaha, that person must be having a blast without me an as excess baggage and i should be happy for that...gosh, this still sucks..big time.

i've been thinking of being in a new relationship...but unless i get over my past relationship, i can't imagine myself being in a new one hehe. talk about self bashing haha..

anyways, it's quite late now and i should be geting my sleep. to that person, i just wanna say...goodnite and miss you whole damn much...

ps: yeah blog, i miss you too..goodnite (talk about being pathetic hahaha)